It Was Always You

A lot of people have asked me the question,

"How did you know?"

"How did you know that Sam was the one?"

I usually tell people,

I didn't.

Sounds weird right?

Let me explain:)

While I was waiting for Sam on his LDS mission,

I wanted so badly for things to work out between us,

But I didn't know how much would change

Between us in two years.

In the course of two years,

I had the chance to grow up and make my own decisions,

Some of those decisions were good ones,

And some not so good,

But I learned from each of the paths I decided to go down.

I would often pray to know what I was supposed to do,

Sometimes multiple times a day.

Some of the questions I had was,

What am I supposed to study in school?

Should I go on a mission?

Will things work out between Sam and I?

What can I do better?

I thought my prayers were going unanswered,

But as I look back,

My prayers were being answered all along the way:)

My Heavenly Father and Savior were

Listening to my prayers,

And they were mindful of me:)

While I received answers to my prayers,

And continued to live my life,

One thing I never stopped praying about was Sam,

I prayed for him daily:)

I prayed for his success,

His safety,

And to let him know that he was loved.

I would occasionally ask in my prayers,

"Will this work out between us?"

Well occasionally turned into frequently,

And as Sam was getting closer and closer to coming home I realized I didn't know if things were going to

Work out between us.

Each of my prayers seemed to be answered with one word,

PATIENCE.

There is one promise I made to Sam before

He left on his mission,

And it was that I would be here

Patiently waiting for him,

I think Heavenly Father was testing my patience because of the promise I made to Sam, haha!

So I continued in patience,

And knew that I would be here when Sam got

Home from his mission,

But still not knowing if it would work out.

I went to the airport to welcome Sam home,

And the instant that I hugged Sam,

And I mean the instant!!

I KNEW that he was the one:)

I had never had a feeling like that before,

Where I knew with all my heart what

I was supposed to do!

That night when I got home I wondered,

Why couldn't I have felt that feeling of

Surety for the past two years,

Why did I feel so confused at so many points?

That night I realized that I did always know it was Sam,

But I had other desires in the way that made

Me block out the answer.

Should I wait for Sam?

But I really want to go on a mission!

Or, I really want to go do this internship far away!

I was blinded by many of my own desires.

So I continued the best I could in patience,

Until I saw Sam for the first time in

Two years at the airport:)

I didn't always know that Sam was the one,

But as I look back,

The answer was always there:)

I just had to leave my personal desires behind,

So that my Heavenly Father could lead

Me to where I am now:)

I am a wife,

A homemaker,

And a someday mom:)

Yes I could have gone on a mission,

Or moved far away,

Or just gone down a completely different path,

But Heavenly Father had a happiness in store for me that He did not want me to miss out on:)

It was always you Sam Cannon,

Even if I didn't know it until I

Hugged you at the airport:)

I'm glad someone else knew,

And that I had a loving Heavenly Father that

Made sure my path led to you:)

I love you my forever:)

- Chelsie C.